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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Camera and NaNo News!!!

Hey faithful readers (however many there may be),

A lot has happened. I went home for Thanksgiving Break. Got to spend three days in Charlotte just bumming around town. Bought a kick ass digital camera. It's a FujiFilm S6000 fd. It's really cool. It has a pretty kickin' zoom and 6 megapixels. And all the cool ass manual settings too. And I took these totally awesome pics:














They're pretty awesome.

Also, in other news. I won NaNoWriMo 2006! That's right, I wrote over 50,000 words in a month! That means that now I can finish my novel, edit it, and then look into finding an agent and a publisher. That's so exicting! Something I've wanted for so long may actually become a reality! Can you believe this???

Because I can't. This is insane. Welp, off to do more writing instead of homework or something else I should be doing... until then...

<3 Christina

Monday, October 30, 2006

Massive Update

I really hate that it takes me so long to update this thing. I've kinda started a regular schedule over on "Play Your Stereo Loud," so hopefully that'll help me update here. Though I don't know how many of you still read this, if you ever did. I promise I'll try to do better.

Not a whole lot has happened over on the Christina Front. Christina gets paid on Friday. That makes her very happy. You know what else makes Christina happy? Cary Brothers :)

On Saturday, my friend Kaitlin and I went to see this little thingy called the Hotel Cafe Tour at the Bowery Ballroom in NYC. It's sponsored by myspace.com and (RED)TM, that little campaign that raises money for, I think, AIDS research. I should be more with it, haha. Anyway, so the whole little tour thing was kinda conceived by Mr. Brothers. It featured Joshua Radin, Jim Bianco, Kevin Devine and Schuyler Fisk (the girlfriend in Orange County with Colin Hanks!). Oh, and Cary too. But, I mean, seriously. All that great music in one room?!? Are you kidding me? Best $17 plus train&subway tickets I've ever spent! (Musical review to be on "Play Your Stereo Loud" later in the week). Plus we got to meet some of them. Kaitlin is in love with Joshua Radin so we talked to him for a bit and got autographs and then she talked to Schuyler Fisk for a few minutes. I stood next to Schuyler but didn't say anything because I didn't know what to say, haha. But it was cool.

After the talking, we went back upstairs to watch some more and got to see Cary sing "Blue Eyes," the song that appears on the Garden State soundtrack. Oh man, it was a crowd sing along. It was fantastic. After his set ended, we watched a few more songs, but then decided that we had to go in order to catch the very last train out of NYC (1:34am!). We went downstairs where I spotted Cary by the bar. This was my opportunity to tap him on the shoulder, say hi and get him to sign the poster I had Kaitlin rip off the wall for me, haha. So I did. He looks different close up, but he's still super gorgeous :). I told him that it was a great show and I wished I could watch more, but we had to leave. Then I asked him to sign it. He goes to a table to sign it and then turns back to me and extends his hand "Hi, I'm Cary." "Hi, Christina," I smiled. He signed it: "To Christina, Love Cary Brothers." It was really cute:). Then he was like "It was nice to meet you," and I said the same, and then he said "Don't worry. We'll see each other again." I smiled at him and was like "what?" He then explained that he was sure he was going to be in the area again at some point and that he was releasing an album in February so he'd probably be back. "That's great!" I said "So I can come to another show or something." He says, "Yeah, we'll see each other again." Hahaha... oh man, I <3 Cary Brothers.

Oh! I almost forgot to mention that I got my first over-21 wrist band that night, and celebrated by buying a giant cup of Budweiser for $5. Beer has never tasted so sweet, hahaha. Oh, and I also got beer spilled on my knee by some random person. My knee. I don't know how that happens, but that was pretty awesome too...

All in all, it was a pretty groovy night. And and and... I got two Cary Brother's EPs for $10 total. And they are AMAZING. Saturday was a great day :)

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Hey You!

Yeah, that's right, you! Have you been reading "Play Your Stereo Loud"? No?!?!? What the heck is wrong with you?!?!? Go read it. Right now.

It is now going to be the site of my new semi-weekly, -monthly, daily, -lifetimey column called "Why I <3 Rock Stars" and features funny news stories or quotes or whatever I can find about rock stars and why I <3 them. You should read it. The first one is pretty funny. And they're not that long either.

Oh, and while you're there... read the reviews, leave comments, go to the bathroom, eat a slice of pizza, whatever you want. Just read it, yo :)

<3 Christina

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Update on My Life

Hey all, not a whole lot going on here. I'm full blown into NaNoWriMo now, with outline and characters and all. Actually I'm finding new characters all the time, and I'm only like 25% of the way through my outline. I def need it if I want any chance of making it through this coming month... especially if I want to come out anywhere near the top. It's actually kind of stressful, but this should be fun. It really pisses me off that I also have to deal with this little thing called "school." What a bitch.

Also, Breanne and I went to Fright Fest last night. Wow. Let me tell you... $45 well spent on waiting in line for 2 hours for a 10 minute "scary" hay ride. Though, in its defense, it was kinda creepy b/c it takes you in the woods in the dark and people jump on the wagon and out of trees. It was... cute... it was fun. Waaaay too many people for my likes though... but whatever.

Also, in other bloggy news. You should really check out "Play Your Stereo Loud." The link is just over there to the right ---->
It's good. Read it. :D

Sunday, October 01, 2006

PostSecret and NaNoWriMo

So yesterday Breanne, her sister and I went to the PostSecret exhibit in Reading, PA. It was really cool. Pretty inspirational i think. I wish i had more art supplies here. Like card stock. I wrote somewhere around 26 secrets last night after I got back to my room, and I want to send some of them in, but I need to find something to make them out of. I also purchased the book. It's really amazing. I love PostSecret so much

Also, I may have talked about this before, but I'm going to join this thing called NaNoWriMo, which is a group of people around the world (though mostly in the US) that join together for the month of November to write crappy novels. The goal is to write 50,000 words in 30 days. They don't have to be good and they don't really have to be coherent. Plot holes are allowed. The only stipulation is that you have to start from scratch at 0:00 (or 12:00am) on November 1, and you have until midnight or 11:59pm on November 30 to submit your story. This is going to be awesome! www.nanowrimo.org.

That's really all for now... (oh, and I didn't get to meet Alessandro Nivola on Friday:(...sadness) Oh well, maybe some other time, haha.

Christina :)

Friday, September 29, 2006

MIA

Wow, I didn't realize how long it had been since the last time I posted on this. I finally got my little music blog off the ground and into the web, so you should go check it out. The link is over there to the right ---->.
It's called "Play Your Stereo Loud." You should check it out, and if you like what you read you should sent other people there to read. Right now the updating is going a little slow and classwork and clubs and all the shit going down on the homefront is distracting me, but I'll try to post something at least once a week. The new post from this week is up. It's a review of Josh Rouse's Nashville. On of my favorite songs of all time is on that album. It's the song I got the title for the blog from. It's a good song, you should try to find it and listen to it. Do it.

Do it.

In other news, I haven't been doing a whole whole lot. Went to the Lactose Tolerance Campaign last weekend in NYC. Signed a petition to make June 1 National Lactose Tolerance Day. That would be awesome, haha. I love milk. Got some cool posters, stickers and a shirt.

Oh good! It doesn't look like rain anymore, which is good b/c i was planning on going into the city later today to "have lunch" with my cousin. Which means that i want to go to his work to meet an actor... under the guise of wanting to go to lunch with my cousin, haha. Oh, me. I'm so clever. Haha.

Anyway, that's all for now. Until next time...

- Christina :)

Sunday, September 17, 2006

woot.

Wee hoo... i finally uploaded me a picture... after having this thing for almost a year, haha. You've probably seen this pic before... man, i really need a new one, haha. maybe someday...

Anyway, not a whole lot has been happening. I still have work to do, but I'm procrastinating. NJ Transit free week is this week. I really want to take advantage of that, but damn my work schedule! Damn it to hell... maybe on friday I'll go into the city and have dinner with my cousin or something. We'll see...

Also, I'm thinking of starting another blog. So if I do you have to go read it. It's going to be all music oriented (which this one was supposed to be, but i'm so damned open that i felt like sharing everything with the world here, haha). But this new one, should I decide to make it, will seriously just be about music. I don't know what I'll call it yet. Or what will go on it. We'll figure something out (we being me haha). So like all those "In Music News" things I put on here sometimes will be on the other one. I'll let you know when I make it, so that you can read it and tell all your friends to read it and so i will become a music blogging goddess! heh....

Whatever... catch ya later,
Christina

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Afterthought...

Okay, so I meant to post this about two weeks ago.

When Amy, her boyfriend Jay and I went to the Counting Crows concert on August 29th, we took separate cars. Thus I had to walk from the parking lot by myeslf. But it was cool because i heard one of the funniest things I've ever heard in my life. Some of you may have heard of the veyr funny site OverheardInNewYork.com. For those who have not, you should check it out. New York is filled with people, and you'd be amazed at the percentage of people are are just retarded. People send the website stupid/silly conversations they overheard. It's actually very amusing. Check it out.

Anyway, I think there should be one for Charlotte. What I heard that night of the concert would definitely make it.

Guy in Orange Shirt: Man, I remember the last time we were here... like 2003. Phish, man. That was an awesome night!
Guy's Friend: You haven't been to a concert since 2003?
Guy in Orange: Nah, man. Remember? 2004-2005 I was in prison.
Guy's Friend: Oh yeah.

Something I heard in the Arbo Walmart would also make it I think.

Little boy: Look, mom! Fun-ton!
Mom: Baby, that says futon...

Maybe not the funniest things ever (though I think the first quote is hilarious), but I still think they're amusing. Someone should start and Overheard in Charlotte site. It'd have like 3 visitors a week. And two of them would probably be me... whatever...

Just a random thought,
Christina

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Back in Joysey

Yo yo yo. I is officially back in Jersey. It was a mother of a move in day though. I woke up at 4am and made it to NJ around 9:30. Breanne picked me up from the airport and we mosied on over to the SHU. After checking in Bre and I went to Bunny's. Uh! Come visit me in Jersey. We will eat fantastic pizza at Bunny's! It was wonderful... unfortunately the rest of the day was spent in SAB training, but it's all good, met a few new fun people. More of the same, blah blah blah...

Then Tues. was the first day of classes. They were alright. Nothing seems too too difficult... but i haven't been to all my classes yet. I had to skip American History II, but no biggie. This is all extremely exciting to you, I'm sure.

What the hell is up with the prices of text books? It's fucking insane. It's such a scam. By the time I've finished getting everything I need I will have spent over $300. When I sell them all back I'll probably get like $25 tops. I wish someone would buy my German book, haha. Damn, i want to get rid of that. Maybe I'll post my history book too... i think i'll do that when i'm done here.

Which I am. There's really nothing much to say; I just felt like I needed to post something.

Oh, in Music News: I kinda found this guy by accident. Actually i was sitting in the SAB office and he imed me, haha. His name is Jim Gaven www.myspace.com/jimgaven He's pretty good actually. He graduated from SHU last year I think. He plays around jersey a lot, and if you get a chance i think you should check him out if you haven't already. I hope we get him to play here again... i wanna see him. check him out.

Peace out:P
Christina

Sunday, August 27, 2006

More Haiku news

Don't worry, I won't talk about the Psy-kus anymore, haha.

However, I do have some other of my haikus featured on another blog. It's still up and coming, but it's a brilliant concept that I think could catch on. It's called the Free Time Masons. Basically it showcases art/literature/whatever that people do when they're supposed to be doing something else. Little creative outlets. Anyway, I recommend you check it out, and perhaps think about showcasing your doodles/creative output too!

Love,
Christina:)

Friday, August 25, 2006

Hahahahahah Holy Crap!!!

I did it! I did it! I won! I won! Oh yeah, that's right.

Remember that little haiku writing contest I told you about last post? Well... it's not really a contest in that I win anything... unless you count getting to bask in the glory of my genius and Psych devotion. To recap, a mission was given to write haikus about the new hit USA show called "Psych." You could basically write as many as you wanted, but only a few would be selected and featured on the Production Blog "Fly On the Wall." Hell yes, this is like a small self-esteem victory! I, Christina a.k.a. Psyched4Psych, was given special thanks. That's right, I said "special thanks" for giving a shout out to my half soul-mate Gus, the buddy in this buddy-cop/psychic show. You all know how much I hate bad grammar, and I could tell there was something special about this particular haiku when I wrote it, even though it wasn't particularly my favorite. Hahahaha, I didn't even win anything, but I am so excited. Hahahaha:D.

This is like small personal victory for Christina. My haiku is being read all over the world. Oh yeah. That's right. :) x 1000

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Greetings, Gang! I changed the layout of my site, hope you like it. I was getting bored of the dots. I like this... so this it shall be... at least for a while, haha.

Anyway, ain't much been happening here. Went to Myrtle Beach for like a day with my dad. It was kinda boring except for the 20 mins we were at the beach to see the sunrise, haha. Perhaps this tentative trip to LA should be a tentative trip to Myrtle Beach... or at least include a trip to a beach. Haha. I've been working on next year's line of Valentine's Day cards. I've got about 7... i need about 13 more. More info on that later.

Also, to amuse myself in my spare time I've entered a Haiku writing "contest." These haikus (or Psy-kus) have to be about the new USA show called "Psych." It's an extremely hilarious cop comedy-drama about a guy who's actually a good detective, but tells the local police department that he's a psychic. He has nothing better to do. But so, all the haikus have to be "Psych" related. I wrote ten. They can be found here. My handle is Psyched4Psych, haha. Enjoy.

Catch ya later,
Christina


P.S. - I've been meaning to share this song with you. It's called "Business Time" and it's by these New Zealanders called The Flight of the Conchords. You should listen to it. Good stuff, hahaha.

"Makin' love.... makin' love for twwooo... makin' love for twooo minutes!" :D

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Long, but perhaps useful...:)

I haven't blogged in a long time, so I thought up a topic and was going to write about it here. It was kinda depressing, but what did I care; I'm depressed about 20-50% of the time anyway. But the topic wasn't really going to be about depression, but more about how I cure my depression. And now after thinking about and actually taking in my cure, I'm no longer depressed, so I don't even want to talk about being depressed. Heh. Go figure. My cure worked once again.

But now you might be wondering what my cure is, so I guess I'll indulge. What I use to cure depression is an everyday item. I'm sure all of you have some of it in your your house right now. I'm sure that all of you have purchased some at some point in your life. *Shifty eyes* And I bet you've stolen some too. Go on, admit it. You have. I have. So what? Wanna make something of it? Come on! Let's take this outside! Sometimes I even buy it, use what I need, and return it. Heh. I got $4.80 of store credit the last time I did that. And then I bought more of my cure (but that cure ended up being rotten and cut to pieces, and really wasn't that enjoyable, but I still think I'm going to keep it...). So what is my cure, you ask? Come on, this is me we're talking about....

Turns out my depression cure-all is music. Turns out I've been using it for this purpose for years, but didn't realize it until Sunday. I suppose I always did know about it, but not in the way that I realized I do. You see, the whole story begins about 5 years ago. I was about to be a sophomore in a new high school because the school board is retarded and decided to bus kids all over town so they could go to their "home" schools, so I was about to leave a bunch of new friends, teachers and clubs behind to start anew. Mind you, this new school was in the ghetto, and despite the reassuring fact that my friend told me I could "pass for Mexican," I did not want to subject myself to the perils of life in the ghetto.

And to top it all off, I was 15. And I'm sure most, if not all, of you reading this remember what it was like to be 15. Puberty and hormones are the devil. Anyway, I was chronically depressed. Every single day of my miserable little life was like awakening to a dark cloud filled with acid rain. Undiluted. I didn't know what the hell I was going to do with my life. I didn't really even want it anymore. And I was seriously contemplating giving it back. One fateful day I bought a CD with a song that changed my life. Listening to "Drive" by Incubus (on Make Yourself) over and over again made me realize that maybe if I WAS the one behind the wheel of my life then maybe I could make it find direction. Maybe I could take control of my life instead of waiting for it to take control of me. I had never really looked for messages in music before. Or at least I had never found any like this.

And you know what? 2 months later I had my first boyfriend. I was down a pants size. And I was actually happy. Ever since that day music has been my saving grace. I never realized what a good friend it could actually be. If that summer had turned out differently, I would never have known Josh Rouse, who made me realize all this in the first place (and who i've decided is going to have at least one of my babies, haha). I would never have known Bain Mattox or my musician friend, both of whom also mean A LOT to me. I would never have met some of my best friends in the world, and the one I already knew, I wouldn't have known as well. I'm not claiming to be free of depression. God knows I have my days. But without having music that affects me, that speaks to me (like Josh's or Bain's), I dont' know what I would do. To quote something I wrote on Sunday on the topic: "We all have problems, every day of our lives. But without a special friend, who sometimes empowers or inspires or depresses or makes you have these sorts of epiphanies, life would be a lot worse."

That's why I'll always hold a special place in my heart for Brandon Boyd of Incubus (for saving my life Summer '01), Bain Mattox (for saving my sanity in November '05), and Red Perspective (for saving my life and sanity after the death of my dorm neighbor March '05). And of course Josh Rouse (for making me realize how much I appreciate my life).

Music is my cure-all. A good melody and some good lyrics are all I need....



(sorry, it's a lot longer and slightly more depressing than I had anticipated. And perhaps a little hard to follow. But if you're reading this blog, you should know and love Christina logic by now, haha :P ).

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Ooh, Breanne, looking good!

Photoshop is fun

Found photoshop on my computer. Decided to swap heads. These are the results.

Baby Spears. Oh I crack myself up.....

I'll keep practicing, hahah....

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

I just felt like bloggin'.....

That title is funniest when said in a Forrest Gump voice, hehe.

But seriously, I did. It's approximately 1:14am and I'm not tired at all. Maybe because I woke up at like 11:30. I try not to wake up that late, but I can't help it. But I feel like my entire day is gone if I wake up after noon. It really sucks. Haven't been up to much. On Friday, Alison, Mary Ann and I went to see my musician friend play at this wine shop in the university area. He was pretty good. I told him to play Josh Rouse and he played my favorite song. That made me extremely happy. I told him to play more Josh Rouse when I talked to him between sets, but he forgot. It was okay though because he played my other requests: Damien Rice, The Fray, and an original song called "Grace" that I am absolutely in love with. It's sad and heartfelt. It's wonderful to see/hear performed. Unfortunately it was hard to enjoy it because I could tell my friends were getting antsy and wanted to leave; we had been there for over 4 hours already, hahaha. Plus the rest of the crowd was getting loud and drunk and annoying (stupid whores, hahah). Also, for reasons unknown, we plunked down at a table kinda far away from him. So that kinda sucked. I promised him next time we'd sit closer; he wants our applause to spread to the rest of the crowd so that they pay attention to him, hahaha. Or at least more attention. Oh well. Next time I'll sit closer.

Saturday was Alison's surprise birthday party. Her birthday isn't until today (Tuesday), but it was the weekend, so we had it. It was kinda cool. I'd never been to a surprise party before. Her parents planned it; but my job was to get a group of friends there. Mary Ann helped, haha. It was really cute. Alison was really surprised; she had no idea. The beginning of the party was kind of emotional, haha. It was sweet and fun. Afterwards a few of us ventured on to the movies where we saw You, Me & Dupree. It was kind of a feel good movie, haha. It was cute actually. Is it just me, or does Owen Wilson play fly-by-the-seat-of-his-pants characters every time? Oh well, he's good at it, heh. It really was a cute movie. Kate Hudson is my girl crush. I love her. Hahaha. I want to be her when I grow up :P

Also, I finally found a creative outlet. I could feel this need for creativity building up for a couple weeks now. I try to write more to my story when I feel that, but it didn't work this time. I bought a sketchbook and some very nice color (or "colour" according to the box) pencils and started to draw. So far it's just a couple pics of Chris Martin of Coldplay. The first one I did was pretty good, if I may say so myself. But the second one is not so good. The black charcoal pencil smeared a little more than I anticipated so now his face is gray-peach, haha. It's not that great; I didn't even really finish it because I couldn't get rid of the gray. His mustache is not done, his nose looks funny, and he looks bald, haha. Oh well. The first one is pretty life like though, I guess. I'll continue to attempt to master my nonskills. Doesn't really matter though; it's only for entertainment.... and cheap gifts, haha....

Monday, July 10, 2006

Six-pack o' Nothin'

Not a whole lot to report over here. Still not being honest (see previous entry) about certain things, haha. Maybe at some point this summer. We'll see. *Sigh* Heh.

I've been having these weird dreams lately. They're not really weird in that the plot of the dream is weird; just that each one involves a different guy, and heavy flirting. One of them was about Josh Meyers, the dude from MadTV. Just a lot of flirting... I don't remember much else. Another one was about this kid Greg who lived on my floor freshman year, dubbed "The Most Gorgeous Boy in the World" by yours truly. Just a lot of hugging, cuddling and flirting. Mary Ann woke me up from that dream. Dammit. Then there was one about my German teacher from high school, Mr. Land. Oh, Mr. Land.... *drools*. More flirting, talking. He was hot. It was nice, haha. And then I think there was one about he-who-shall-not-be-named, hahah :). More of the same. Then last night I had this weird dream about this other kid Marko who used to go to school with me. This one had a heavier mood than the others; he was meaner to me, and there was really no flirting... though he let me stay at his place while he was gone (haha?). I think I'm over-sexed. Or under-sexed. One of them. Hahaha... but ooh... those were some gorgeous men in my dreams, hahaha.

In Music News: I'm still obsessed with Josh Rouse. He's virtually all I've listened to for 3 weeks. The compilation CD my friend made me has been spinning almost constantly in my car. The only time it's not in there is when another Josh Rouse cd (1972) is playing. Or when my friend is in fact playing, haha. But seriously, I wish I had known about this guy sooner. I don't use this phrase often, but I think his music is potentially life changing. Seriously. I can't even count how many times I've listened to "Comeback" these past few weeks. And now I've discovered a new song. It's called "Its the Nighttime." I haven't even formulated words for it yet. But let me put it this way. I wish that someone would sing it to me. Perhaps even he-who-shall-not-be-named, hehehe. :D

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Poignant Quotes...

I love to read. And more than anything else, I love to take pieces of philosophy from the books I read and write them down so that I never forget them. I recently found an old notebook I use to write down such quotes and other moving passages (usually song lyrics). I haven't opened it in months, so I started reading some of the quotes I've taken from books that I thought were so insightful. Here are a few:

"And maybe you don't go to hell for the things you do. Maybe you go to hell for the things you don't do." -- Lullaby, Chuck Palahniuk, p. 175.

"Game shows are designed to make us feel better about the random, useless facts that are all we have left of our education." -- Invisible Monsters, Chuck Palahniuk, p. 103

"When we don't know who to hate, we hate ourselves." Invisible Monsters, p. 104

"What you don't understand you can make mean anything." Diary, Chuck Palahniuk, p. 134

"According to Plato, we don't learn anything. Our soul has lived so many lives that we know everything. Teachers and education can only remind us of what we already know." Diary, p. 188.

"Why is it that you feel like a dope if you laugh alone, but that's usually how you end up crying?" Invisible Monsters, p. 121

Okay, so most of them are from the same author, haha. But I don't think that makes them any less true or even jarring. That last one is especially telling. Why is it that we often just cry by ourselves? Perhaps it's just ingrained in our minds to be strong and not let others see our weaknesses. I never understood that ideal. I think that if everyone was as open with each other as we are with ourselves we'd have a lot more happiness in this world (not to sound all hippie-y or anything). If we could tell each other the truth, the truth of what we are feeling... there'd be less pain. I mean, obviously, yes there would be. But if little Billy could just tell his mommy that he broke the window, he wouldn't have to see her afraid of burglars. Or if Cindy could tell anyone about what Old Man Jenkins does to her behind the barn, she wouldn't hate herself quite as much..... If I only could tell him that I think he's talented, intelligent, kind, attractive, and all-around wonderful, maybe then he could let go and allow himself to open up a little more. And then maybe I wouldn't feel so nervous around him.

*sigh* if only we could be honest, eh? Heh.... ;)

God, I hope he never reads this.... hahahaha.... or figures out I'm talking about him.... *embarrassed* hahaha:)

Monday, June 26, 2006

I Don't Get It...

What is going on with the world? Like two weeks ago a kid I went to elementary school and middle school (i'm not sure where or if he went to high school) died of a brain aneurysm. He was like my age. Then like a week later I found out a friend from school's father died. Then last week one of our soccer players died. She sat next to me in Great Books I spring semester of freshman year. It's almost getting to the point that it's freaking me out.

And to top it all off I had a dream that my friend's car (and house? heh...) was stolen. A few months ago his car was stolen... and that was after my dream that his car BLEW UP. What the hell is going to happen now? I swear to God, if his car blows up..... :( x 1000 Just my mass confusion with the world, I guess.

In lighter news, I'm still in love with the Josh Rouse compilation my friend (the car friend, actually) made me. He also let me borrow his Death Cab dvd "Directions." It's a collection of 13 videos directed by different directors (hence the title) for all the songs on their latest album Plans, plus 2 bonus songs. It was pretty interesting actually. A few of the videos were really weird and I didn't understand at all (and I pretend to be pretty arty). Others were genius, like the ones for "Different Names for the Same Thing" and "Someday You Will Be Loved." And the video for "Crooked Teeth" was histerical.They were amusing, disturbing, depressing and moving (especially "What Sarah Said"... i felt on the verge of tears). It was interesting and worth the watch, but if you can find someone who owns a copy I suggest you borrow it, but I wouldn't necessarily suggest you buy it.



(Please, Friend's Car... don't mess with me....)

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Jeez, Christina. Take Forever!

Well well well... it's been for-freaking-ever, eh? In the past few weeks, I really haven't done much. I wish I had more to say about my life, but it's kind of hard to put enough words together to make anything remotely coherent and interesting when you don't have a life to begin with. I'm currently self-employed. Unfortunately, I don't ever get paid... my boss is a bit of a bitch... but there is a bit of a cash flow problem within the company, so I guess I can't really complain. I mean, I did agree to work for free for a little while. I should really look for another job though...

I have taken up yoga these past couple weeks. I've only been to a handful of classes, but so far I like it. Hopefully I'll be able to maintain going there, even with my cash flow problem. I'm taking what the studio calls "Hot Flow" which is basically yoga in a 90+ degree (F) room for 60 to 90 mins. Sometimes it can get up to like 110 degrees. It's a killer. But when that first bead of sweat rolls off your face onto your mat, you know it's worth it. It's cleansing, releasing. The instructors always talk about how certain poses and postures are emotional, and how yoga is a very emotional ordeal for some people. I thought that was kind of weird, until last friday when we were quietly meditating at the end of class and I inexplicably wanted to cry. I didn't actually start, but I could feel it building up in my sinuses. It was bizarre... and yet refreshing. I wish I had taken up yoga a long time ago. Sometimes in class I feel like I'm going to vomit and/or pass out. But when I'm done, and I've showered off all my toxins (hehe) I feel great. A bit tired with a bit of a headache... but just great. And it's good for me too... go figure:P

In Music News: So I got my friend to burn me a CD of this guy Josh Rouse he's been telling me to check out. I gots to conserve money, so I made the very difficult decision to not buy CDs right now (even used) if i've never heard the artist before. So I told my friend to burn me copies of the Josh's CDs. He then offered to burn me his Josh Rouse Compilation. So I gladly accepted (b/c hey, it's better than nothing... and it was free... except for the gas I had to use to go get it... both the time i actually picked it up and the time he had forgotten to make it so I stayed to talk for a few mins anyway, haha). ANYWAY, Josh Rouse. Hoh, my God. WHERE THE HELL HAVE I BEEN?!?!?!? This CD is so wonderful. It has songs from a few of Rouse's albums, I guess my friend's favs or something, and it's all I've been listening to since I picked it up yesterday afternoon. At first only a few of the songs were catching me... but then I took a closer listen and I'm addicted to most of them on here now. All of the songs on the burned CD are from albums released within the past decade, but there's an older feeling to Rouse's music. It refreshing when all you hear lately is "Junk" Punk and "Crap" Rap (nicknames mine) like AFI or any of the hacks who think they're rappers. I'm so tired of this craze. Much of Rouse sounds like it's out of the seventies. A couple songs are reminiscent of the disco era (as reminiscent as anything can be to someone who never actually LIVED the disco era). Overall, it's great. I'm in love with the song "Comeback (light therapy)." I've listened to it at least 20 times today. You should check it out.

That's really about it... hopefully the next time I blog won't take 3 weeks, but no guarantees. Until then....

Friday, June 02, 2006

Song Headaches suck :(

I'm really tired, but I can't sleep. I want to go to sleep. But I can't. I can't explain it either. All I have to do is turn off the light, and lie down quietly, and try to relax. But I know I won't be able to relax. And I'm not even sure what my problem is. It's not like I'm doing anything important. My mind is plagued, I guess.

I can't even tell you by what. I know... but I'm not going to tell you, haha. So I'm going to be cryptic: There's this song that I can't get out of my head. I sing it every day while watching tv, going out around town, whoring around on myspace. Even in weird situations where thinking about the song is not appropriate. I wish that I could get rid of this song-headache, but nothing seems to cure me. Maybe if I find another song, but I don't care about other songs. This song is my favorite. Even when I'm driving, i'm looking around at different cars wondering if they know my song too. If they've heard it before. If they are as obsessed with it as i am. I wish that I wasn't. It pisses me off, quite frankly. I tell myself not to think about the song, but I can't seem to forget it. It just keeps looping and looping in my head. I hear it on my iPod, and on my computer, and I wonder when the next time I'll get to hear it performed in person will be.

And yet, I wish that I could just stop thinking about this freaking song for one minute. For one day, I want to not have to go through the lyrics and the information I'm gleaning about its meaning. I want to be devoid of this song. I constantly tell myself that I'm a fool for thinking about it so much, and there's no reason for me to be, but I never seem to listen. I just laugh it off, and go back to thinking about it, to singing it, to wondering about it. Sometimes I think that I've over-analyzed it, over-analyzed my experiences with it. I'm a fool and I'm making up stories. I have to get a grip and find a new song. A song for my generation, as it were. But I haven't cared for these kinds of songs in so long. I live in the past (and sometimes in a past that I barely remember, if i've lived it at all). This particular song has been around for longer than I have, but I fell in some form of love with it from the first time I heard it about 4 or so years ago.

Slowly, over time and over multiple listens, I think I've fallen in love with it. Or at least with the version I understand. I KNOW there is more to it than I'm gathering, but it's hard to truly and fully understand without an explanation, without a guided tour, if you will. But you know what, dammit? I WANT a guided tour. I do. I want one. I want to be able to understand this song as fully as it's humanly possible to understand. It intrigues me so. And yet I know that I need to let it go.

But I don't want to. In case I DO finally get that guided tour....

And this is why I am left awake at 3am. What the hell is wrong with me??

[I know that was kind of confusing, but I suppose it makes sense to those whom it's supposed to make sense...]

Sunday, May 21, 2006

A whole lotta nothin'

I know it's been forever since I've updated this thing; I just haven't really had anything newsworthy to report. In fact, I still don't have anything newsworthy to report. I have been home for like 3 weeks, and I haven't really done anything. I have an unpaid internship (for now, haha stupid school), so I need a job. I've been to not even a whole music show yet, which is insane if you know me. I've been to 3 movies (American Haunting [awful], Failure to Launch [cute, but not the best romantic comedy ever], and The DaVinci Code [like the book, only shorter and less fun b/c there is less explanation and less time to figure out the puzzles for yourself]).

Also, I've filled up my gas tank 3 times and have spent countless dollars on stuff I probably don't need. For instance, 4 pairs of shoes, hahaha. I'm surprised I haven't bought any new purses yet seeing as I'm such a bag hag, too, haha. But one pair is by far my favorite. The brand is called RocketDog. I've heard of them before, but I don't know what any of the other shoes look like. These are wonderful. They have elastic bands instead of laces, and they look really rugged. The store had them in 4 colors, and totally contrary to my normal personality, I bought the most colorful of them! They're so comfortable. I'm such a girl, hahah. Ahhh... love them so much. I wonder what other kinds of shoe they make, hahaha...

Ah, well... that's really about it... oh, i also read the entire PostSecret book in the store a couple weeks ago. I've been trying to think of some good secrets... anyone wanna have a secret party?:P

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Why does this not surprise me?

"Veteran glam rocker GARY GLITTER, who was recently sentenced to three years in a Vietnamese prison for child molestation, will appeal in Ho Chi Minh City on May 19th. The disgraced sixty-one-year-old Brit, born Paul Francis Gadd, denies that he committed lewd acts with the girls, 10 and 11, involved in the case, maintaining he is a victim of a British tabloid conspiracy. Glitter was apprehended for his current sentence last November boarding an international flight out of the country. He also served two months in British prison for a 1999 child pornography possessions charge . . . "

I remember seeing one of his CDs in a record store over a year ago, and he gave me the creepiest vibe ever. This man terrifies me. And that paragraph made me giggle. What a demented freak. Oh man.... *shakes head*

Monday, May 01, 2006

Lottery Commercial

This post isn't really substantial, but I felt like sharing. So you guys know the NY lottery commercials (sorry folks not in the NY area, but it doesn't really matter)? There are a few... but I'm here to tell you about my favorite one. And I don't care if the story ends up being a "you had to be there" kind of story, because regardless, it makes me giggle. Hehehe...

Okay, so there's this couple in their apartment and a bunch of money just drops from the sky. The lady's like "should we go out and get it?" and the guy is like "nah. it looks like only 7 or 8 million. we should wait and see if more falls." And they wait for like 2 seconds. Then cut to this guy who reminds me of Hurley on Lost. I think this guy was in that movie Taxi with Jimmy Fallon and Queen Latifa... the bad guy i think... kinda chubby, curley hair. Anyway, so camera cuts to him. And he's like:
"MMMMOOONNNNEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!"
And then like all these people come out of the woodwork and pick up all the money, and the original couple is all like "oh... dammit." And then it's something like "blah blah blah ny powerball don't let it pass you by" or something like that...

But hahahahahaha.... that money part does it for me everytime! Oh man. Woo! "Monneeeeeeeyyyyyy!" Hahaha. It's the best part.... Alright... i'm okay, hehe...

Just thought I'd share... :P

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Britney Spears, Part Deux

Alright, I'll admit it: Britney Spears brings me much joy in life.

She so stupid, my sides hurt.

In an attempt to make sure her baby Sean Preston is kept safe, she fired her nanny. She's very distraught over her son's falling on his head. She's been "in hiding and depressed" apparently because of this. As you can clearly tell by this picture (Caption: Britney Spears is still upset about Sean Preston's fall from the highchair.). Seriously, that is what the caption to this picture says. You would think they'd be able to find a more fitting picture, but it is Britney Spears we're talking about here... Anyway, so she's upset and depressed and all that good stuff, but wait; it gets better.

Good ol' Britney also hired a doctor to give her advice on how to keep her son safe from any more Spears-Federline household mishaps. He told her, and I'm quoting an insider quoted in a magazine here, "not to leave Preston on any high surfaces where he could roll off."

And she needed a doctor to tell her this.

Oh! And the best part? Britney was so impressed with the genius-level advice that she tried to hire him full time. Unfortunately for her, or rather, unfortunately for Little Preston, he told her this was not necessary.


Hahahahaholy crap! Oh, the tears streaming forth from my eyes! Britney, will you marry me and neglect my babies?

here's the link to the original story

Friday, April 21, 2006

Britney Spears' Wurds of Wizdum

"Anyone can sit down and write a boring, artistic song. Pop music is the hardest shit to write." -- BRITNEY SPEARS

Sometimes I read about things that everyone's favorite pop-whore-princess says or does, and I wonder how my head doesn't explode. This little quote has been a joy in three different ways since I read it the other day in a subscriber's email from Rolling Stone:

1) Oh yeah, Britney, pop music is hard. Kinda like adding 2 and 2 is hard. And what are you talking about anyway? You don't write the song yourself anyway.

2) Holy shit, I think Whorey Whorey Whore Whore has a point. Pop music probably is hard as anything to write, because you have to make sure that it appeals to not only mindless Pseudo-OC drones dressed like Paris Hilton who attend the country's many elementary, middle, and high schools (not to mention the higher education establishments they're accepted to because of Daddy's money), but ALSO hopefully attract the attention of the people in this world who actually have individual identities and matured tastes in music. At least, that's the goal.

3) Hahahaha! She just said that the music she does isn't artistic. Because apparently anyone can write something that's artistic, but it takes a special level of mental retardation to create slop that's popular with the masses. She basically just said that everyone in the world who likes Pop music is uncultured. Bahaha. Way to insult your fans, Child Neglecter.

I admit, I'm a little disturbed by the fact that something Britney Spears said has held my attention for a little over a day, but you have to admit that it was a pretty good quote. She called herself a hack.

And that's priceless.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Music Reporting and Devil-Horns

Okay, so I told you it was going to happen, but I completely forgot to tell you how it went. The day finally came to go to my "Covering the Music Scene" seminar. Yipee! Oh, man. It was so much fun! I met Chuck! I love Chuck (even though he reminds me of my ex-boyfriend... in so many ways, but we'll forgive him for that because he's so damn funny). And there were other reporters there too like Jim Farber, Lola Ogunnaike, Elysa Gardner and Alan Light, but let's face it: my deciding factor was Chuck Klosterman. Because... well because if you get down to the bare bones of it, I have an addictive personality, and thus I love being the groupie.

ANYWAY, so I learned alot from those 5 folks. How do you end up in the music reporting industry? You have to work for it. Sometimes you just "end up" there, but you have to go out on a limb and believe in yourself as a writer (though this kinda applies to all kinds of reporters). What's the difference between magazines and newspapers? Elysa said: With magazines you have more freedom and more space, and can therefore be more self-indulgent (that's my kind of writing! hehe). But you have to rememeber that the subject is going to be the interest of the reader, not the writer. Chuck said: With newspapers you can't swear and there are certain parameters that you have to follow. But, if you follow these rules you can basically write about anything you want. With a magazine you have more freedom, but you also get edited a lot more. Plus you always have to be conscious of the "voice" of the magazine.

Also, you have to suck up in magazines. You can't tear celebrities new ones. Damn, that would be fun. They also talked about the internet and blogs and such. That was really interesting. They were talking about how now that everyone envisions themselves reporters (haha, as i type my blog...) the value of writing really goes down. The expectations of writing also goes down. These online types also lose perspective with respect to what's good. Just because it's new, doesn't mean it's good. And that's what online people are obessed with: getting it first.

So, what I basically learned from these 5 great people, is that you have to talk about what music means, not what it sounds like (except in a general sense, says Chuck). You're not there to tell people what's good or bad; you're there to tell them what it means in the scheme of things, how it affects you, what it means personally. Because even thought people don't know you, they respond to first person accounts... because it makes them thing "oh yeah... wow.... i feel the same way about this album by this person."

I am so stoked. I love first person writing! Oh and before I forget:
I talked to Grizzly Adams... I mean Chuck... after the seminar :D. He was a super cool guy. I'm in love... haha not really... but he's a cool dude. And we have similar glasses.

Also, as I was heading back to the subway, I spotted this gem. It was too cool not to take a picture.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Cold Medicine + British Children's Shows = Hilarity!

So every once in a while something reminds me of things that I've done in my childhood. I enjoy these stories, and I thought maybe I'd share a few with you. Here is one that amused Breanne greatly today, haha. I love this story too. It makes me giggle:

Have you ever been so sick that you start to imagine things? Have you ever been so sick that you were delusional? Oh yeah, that's the best kind of sick. Once when I was about 14 or 15 I got so sick for no reason. There was no cause for my illness, but I was burning up, but I was freezing cold. In the middle of July. I was so sick. And because I was so sick, I thought I was going to die. I got it in my head that my fever was going to kill me. I was so scared I was crying; I was positive it was going to happen. Funny how that happens.

But this story isn't about that day (but related, so i threw that one in here). This story happened a couple years before. I was 12 or 13, and in 7th grade, if I remember correctly. One morning I woke up and I had some other mysterious illness. I had a fever. I was coughing, I was light-headed. I was SICK. I was delirious. So I took some cough medicine and laid in my inflatable bed, which is really hard to lay on when you're sick b/c 1) the sheets always slide off, so you're contstantly having to get off and readjust and 2) it makes plastic rubbing noises, and that's annoying as hell even if you're not sick. But so it was bad because being annoyed and sick is not cool. But it was okay because I had my television. TV is awesome when you're sick. Especially when you're delirious.

The Teletubbies have never been funnier.

So there I was, at like 10:30 in the morning. I was flipping channels, all hopped up on like nyquil or something. I found PBS; the Teletubbies were on. I stopped to watch. The yellow one and the red one were on opposite sides of a brick wall that couldn't have been bigger than 3 feet wide and like 5 feet tall. They were on opposite sides of the wall.... and they couldn't find each other!

I have never laughed harder. "She's on the other side!" I yelled at the yellow one. "Hehehehe! No, the other way!" I giggled. "No, Laa Laa, you stay there! Po, she's on the other side! Just walk around! Hehehehehe!" I said.

I was trying to help them find each other, because for some reason I thought they could hear me, kinda like how the little kids yell at Blues Clues (which by the way, i'm 90% sure that I saw Steve in NYC yesterday... he was going into a pizzeria in Chelsea, hehe) or Dora the Explorer. Seeing those two try to find each other on opposite sides of a 3 foot wide brick wall was HILARIOUS. I love that show...

And I love being delirious! Haha...

Sunday, April 02, 2006

Follow the Finger..... do it... do it now....

Found this while Breanne and I were walking down Madison yesterday. I had to stop and take a picture. I love finding things like this.



Apparently it's an ad for Butterfinger. But still, how funny would it be if that phone rang and you answered it and spoke gibberish? That'd be awesome.

Friday, March 31, 2006

I want...

*Sigh* I'm so drained. I seriously feel like i have no energy to do anything. I think I may need Zoloft or something, haha. I kind of feel like I have more motivation to work than I did, say, a month ago, but still I don't want to do anything.

That's a lie. I just don't want to go to school anymore. I want to work and make money. That's what I want to do. I want to write. I want to get published. I want to report and review things. I want to have an editorial job at a newspaper or something. I want to write a column for a magazine. I want to freelance. I want to travel. I want to buy CDs. I want to listen to music. I want to meet new people. I want to fall in love. With someone who loves me back. In a way that's more than a friend. I want to be happy. I want to be wealthy. I want to have children. I want to go to shows. I want to have a house. I want to be able to enjoy my life.

I don't want to deal with this bullshit anymore.

Sometimes I fall into this rut (and it extremely painful for me to mention this) and I get this feeling that no one really likes me. Why does that happen? I start to question my friendships, every acquaintance...ship... Do they really like me? Or are they just too nice to not tell me to go away? So I test people. I say self-depricating things, even though I know it's not appealing. Whatever. But you know what, whenever my fears are cast aside with a nice comment from someone who's time and conversation and thoughts and life I cherish... it does make me feel better. As long as what they say is true... which is hard to tell, I guess. But I suppose there are other things that should tell me that i'm not just a person that's tolerated, but actually a person who is liked. For example, prolonged conversation, prompt responses to emails, kind smiles, gifts and recommendations of things they think I might like. These things make me feel good.

But sometimes I lose hold of those things.

I think it's because I'm a bit of a recluse. And it's not just that I'm a recluse. It's that I'm in college, the time when I should (ostensibly) be friends with everyone, getting drunk, passing out and waking up in the bed of a stranger, in a room I don't know, lost somewhere on campus, a certifiable slut... b/c, after all, isn't that what you're supposed to do in college? I can't do those things though. So I'm a recluse, with no car, trapped in the top of a tower, with only my music and my SHITTY COMPUTER THAT NO LONGER BURNS CDs.... sonofabitch!

I feel better now. I've vented...

P.S.- Second Annual National Haiku Month starts tomorrow! And when I say "national" I mean "Christina National" which means basically that I made it up. But so if you want me to send you one Haiku, written by yours truly, each day of April, let me know and I'll add you to the email list!

Samples:
Small, bright flower bud
One day you'll be a flower
You fit up my nose.

Steroids beef you up
Your muscles are super huge!
But your nuts are gone.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Soo sleeeeeepy

Man, I am really tired. I have no idea why. I went to bed... gosh... I don't know maybe around like 1:30 or 2. And then I got out of bed at 10:45ish. One would think that after 8 hours I'd be ready to go. However, this does not happen often. I can only really sleep throughout the night when I'm sick. This seems opposite to me. On any given night I wake up about a jillion times. The first time I woke up last night was 3:49 am. I ventured to the bathroom and climbed back into bed. I awoke again approximately 3 hours later. And then 45 minutes after that (when I thought that it was after 1 when, in fact, it was only just after 7, but my alarm clock is at an annoying angle where i can't tell the 1 from the 7 -- also, it's digital... so I'm not that big of an idiot, haha). And then about 40 minutes after that. And then 30 minutes after that. Each time I woke up I had this horrible feeling that someone was trying to get me out of bed. It was some girl; I don't know who. I don't even know why she was trying to get me out of bed. I was able to sleep for almost 2 hours after that last time I woke up, but then I swear it was like every 10 to 20 minutes after that, until I was just fed up and got out of bed.

I freakin' hate when that happens. I don't know what my problem is.

But then I just lounged around half asleep for most of the day. At about 2:30 I almost fell asleep. It was like I was suddenly narcoleptic. I was perfectly fine, but then I was almost fully asleep. But then I woke up a little when I decided to walk down to Blockbuster. So I came back, grabbed some dinner and watched one of the movies I rented (Oh, man, Just Friends is hilarious! It made me laugh out loud several times, and even made me make a couple involuntary honk/grunt/hard laughs. Oops, haha. It was good. Cute.). But now I feel totally drained again. I can barely keep my eyes open as I type this. And it's only 8:10...

I haven't even been awake for 12 hours...

Alright well... just felt like sharing. I'm off... to do... something...

P.S. - Coldplay are in East Rutherford right now. I am not. This makes me immensely sad. But it's okay. Someday Chris Martin and I are going to have a child. And we will name it Orange... or Banana... I haven't decided which yet...

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Classical music notes

This is what I do when I find candy that I don't like in the vending machine:

I eat all the reds (and in this case purples too) and then play with the others. How old am I? It is pretty though...


Oh well, I felt like posting again because I'm bored and really don't feel like doing work right now. At 8, Breanne and I attended this classical music concert by a man whose name I cannot remember and don't care enough about to look up. For over 2 hours we sat there... not really paying attention. Instead we held a very in depth conversation entirely on notebook paper (and before that, on the back of some notes on how to write a case brief i found in my media law text book). I don't know if I've ever had such an enlightening conversation about relationships and love before. I think it might have been the music. I was able to explain the phenomenon of the "electric spark" and not only have someone know what I was talking about, but also have them reaffirm the sense of awe I have of it (it's when you're having a conversation with someone and one of you says something that just sends this "electric spark" that punches you in the chest. You can't breathe for a second, and everything stops. You both stop talking, and you just stare at each other for what seems like eternity. But then one of you starts talking again and suddenly you can breathe. It's wonderful, haha). She told me about unrequited love and how much it hurts to love someone so much, but have them keep themselves from feeling anything at all, even love.

It's one thing to read about people telling things like this (so I don't know if this really means much to any of you reading this), but it's another thing to have the person tell you personally what they're feeling. And not typed or read off a computer screen, but hand written in front of you. Where you can see how long it takes them to write it down, how the words flow from their pen as they're reliving the memory right then and there inside their head. You may get the same story from reading or hearing words... but you never truly understand until you can watch them work. It made me start thinking...

That's why I've always wanted to watch someone write a song. Songwriters are among the bravest people I can think of. They write down their emotions for everyone to hear. And even though you're not there to see them scribble down the words as they race through their head, grabbing anything that'll make a mark, grabbing anything that has space left to write even a letter, there is always the music (the soulful part). And I feel that it acts like the rush you get from watching someone recall a personal memory.

You know how when you see a musician perform a song whose content you know is personal and painful, and you don't quite know who or what specifically they're talking about, but you understand anyway? When you watch a musician perform a song that's so emotionally draining that you feel out of breath by the time it's over?

I did that once. I once watched a musician perform such a song and realized, at the end of the song, that I had been holding my breath for the last couple verses. My chest hurt and I was out of breath. I took a couple unsteady breaths in, just to get back to my regular breathing pattern. I felt awful.

The song was amazing.

That's why I love to watch people. Watching ranges of emotion is one of the purest ways you can get to know someone. Watching them create something, watching them present something that they've poured themselves into. Sometimes I sit back and forget about all the stupid people in the world, and am just in love with everyone, and amazed at all the personalities that coexist.

Perhaps that's a little existential. But I don't care. It's late...

Change is good...

Yeah, so I've decided to rename my blog. I don't feel like being angsty anymore. And my old title was seriously angsty. As is my url... which i should change by the way... i think i will...

i'm done. i'm tired of being bored. i'm tried of being bored with my life. I want some real adventure, dammit. I cannot wait until April 5th. I'm going to a seminar called "Covering the Music Scene." One of my favorite authors, Chuck Klosterman, is one of the speakers. Soooo excited. Seriously. I have no words. I can't even control myself. I am totally bringing one or all of his books that i own to try get him to sign them (I don't care how big a dork you think i am, Breanne. haha). I love Chuck Klosterman... well not in the sense that i'd want to marry him or have x number of his children, but oddly enough, I can relate to him. Even though he's 13 years older than I am, I can relate to him better than I can relate to some people my own age.

Is that weird? I don't think so. I seem to get along fairly will with that demographic.

But no, I love Chuck because, as corny as this sounds, he kind of gave me direction in life. I never knew exactly what I wanted to do with my life, but after reading his book Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs, I knew. Honestly, I'm still not totally positive, but because of that book, I have a pretty good idea. I recently finished reading another of his books called Killing Yourself to Live and it was probably one of the best books I've ever read. It's smart, funny, and is wonderfully quirky. It reads the way I think: slightly disjointed, occasionally losing the main idea, but always coming back to it eventually, usually with some new understanding of it. It's also extremely conversational, which I love. That's the way I write. I don't know if this makes sense to anyone else, but he kind of helped me find my voice.

Now if only I could find an opportunity to use it....

In Music News: I'm still in love with Chris Whitley, though i think I need to find new material. I was recommended a couple more of his albums to check out, but I don't know how I'm going to do that seeing as I'm afraid to shop online (it's a complex really... it's sad), and I don't have quick access to a used (or otherwise) record store. If anyone has any of his albums that I could borrow, let me know. Thanks:)

Monday, March 13, 2006

Springy Break

So I'm back from Spring Break now. I'm happy. It was so much better than last year's. In fact, a lot of things are better than they were a year ago. I've just spent the last hour or so reading my other blog that I used to update a lot. I was reading back entries, from this summer all the way back to February of last year. My goodness, a lot has changed. Are there more things going good in my life, or has a year really affected my personality so drastically? Reading all those entries from approximately a year ago makes me feel sorry for myself. Probably because almost all the entries were about being depressed and remembering when I was 15 and contemplating suicide. I mean, I still get depressed. But now I feel like it's for different reasons, and I haven't been depressed for a couple months (I think I get depressed about the winter months now).

But I have a lot of things to not be depressed about in my life now, I guess. This spring break I got 4 really great albums. Right now I'm listening to Jack Johnson's On and On. It's really good. Ever since that dream that I had a while ago, I've been listening to more Jack. Pandora.com is amazing. And so is my other Pandora... my friend over at Manifest. He recommended (read: handed me) another really good CD. It's this guy named Chris Whitley (who is dead now I think). It's kinda rock-y, blues-y sort of. It's one guy, a mic, and his guitar (and sometimes banjo). The liner notes also credit to him the "foot stomp". I really like the first track called "Scrapyard Lullaby." It reminds me of someone else, but I can't quite put my finger on it. It's the kind of music that makes you want to accompany Mr. Whitley on the foot stomp. I also really like track #4, "Wild Country." I'm not sure why, but it makes me sad. And makes me think of Charlotte. Probably because Whitley talks about "returning to the wild where I'm from." And I guess Charlotte's pretty wild... and it is where I'm from. Nostalgia, maybe? I don't know. But it's a good song. Check it out: Chris Whitley, Dirt Floor.

Also, saw Bain Mattox again. It was so great. Like an hour and a half of the Bain. Ooooh, wonderful. They're so high energy, it's great. I love when Mr. Mattox dances around the stage with his accordion. I also enjoyed the fellas' tribute to Tom Petty, especially when Bain, Chris and Mike jumped down from the stage to mingle with the crowd (aww, poor Rivers and Andy with their stationary instruments.. hehe... i like Rivers... he kinda reminds me of Peter Krause). Then Bain jumped up on a stool and was playing. That was pretty sweet. Haha.

I just hung out a lot, watched a couple movies, had some fun conversations. Just generally had a good time.

I'm so glad I'm in a better place than I was a year ago.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Blah...

Howdy, folks! It's now less than 2 days before I get to go home for Spring Break. Woo hoo! Also it's sleeting! Awesome! Snow during Spring Break... it's a northern thing, apparently. Mmmm Charlotte. I hear that it's supposed to be like highs of 50 the entire break. Sweet! Warm! hahaha. Ah, Jersey and its cold weather.

Also, you know what Spring Break means. Well, that too. But it also means that the semester is almost over. Waaaa! Where did it go? That means that I have to look for a job for the summer this week. Why this week? So I beat all the stupid high school kids. Hopefully my plan will work. I don't know though. I'm sorta worried about that. Also, I might try to get another internship. Or maybe I'll just start freelancing to a newspaper or something. Gosh, I don't even know what I'm going to do. But I've been reading a lot of Chuck Klosterman lately... and that only gives me ideas.

I also think that reading a lot of an author and then trying to write a paper for class is a bad idea. I found myself adopting his style in a paper I wrote just yesterday for one of my classes. It's not bad. It's just kinda sarcastic. I made some comment about how a book we had to buy for class didn't feel like a textbook in as much as it wasn't written like one, but as far as it being required reading, that's another story. I worded it differently, I'm sure. But it reminded me of Chuck. Whatever, he's my hero, hahaha. And I get to see him on April 5th! Yay!!! Exxxxcccciiiitttteeedddd!!!!!!

::Deep Breath:: Welp, I don't really have much more to say that's substantial (not that what I ever write here is especially). So I'm going to go do some Sudoku... hahaha...

Monday, February 27, 2006

Pics...

Okay, so I accidentally left out some pics from this last week. First of all, I'm completely forgot to mention Bain Mattox (how could that be????). Breanne and I saw them on Wednesday [though I'm sure there was some reluctance on her part, haha;) ]. But so, I love Bain Mattox: God of Rock. He couldn't be the God of Accordion that day because it was broken. So he was the god of Banjo. (Holy crap, this is insane. My Damien Rice/Jack Johnson Pandora station is playing Stephen Lynch's "Jim Henson's Dead"! Hahahahahahah! Awesome.). Also, because I'm a huge dork, I asked Bain to take a pic with us. I love me some Bain. Haha.


Anyway, so there were also some pictures taken of last Saturday which I totally intended to include in the previous post, but forgot. So here are those: This is me being sea sick..... ...... and this is Diana almost being smushed by a helicopter out on the flight deck of the ship.





And here's the whole giant thing. The USS Intrepid, I think is what's it's called (haha, i should know... but I don't... loser). Oh and here's Diana with Fake McDreamy... It kinda looks like him, right? Right? Eh, more so in person maybe. Anyway, this is Diana and her new friend Patrick Dempsey... ::cough cough:: yes. haha.

Anyway, here are some of the pics. It was a fun day.

And I love Bain Mattox. Hehe.

My 20th Post

Howdy, and welcome to my 20th post. It's amazing, I know. I can't even remember all the posts that I've made (though honestly, i'm sure that if i thought really hard, i could). Anyway... yes. 20 posts. Congrats, me!

So, on Saturday Diana and I went to the Intrepid Museum and volunteered with this organization called Puppetry Arts Theatre. We helped little kids make puppets. Yes. It was actually fun. And we got free admission to the museum and a free lunch (which was probably better than anything I could have gotten on campus, haha). And the guy that was running it looked like Dr. McDreamy from Grey's Anatomy (and when i was watching it last night, that's who i kept seeing when McDreamy came on the screen, hahah). He's a really nice guy. And the whole thing was really fun. I think we're going to volunteer with them again in March.

Then we went to the Met. That was actually pretty cool. I want to go again just to walk around and look at everything. We had to find specific things so that Diana could write a paper, and we stopped at a few things, but I wanted her to find everything she needed. Also, my feet hurt. So next time, I'll walk around more. And it only cost me like $1, which is cool b/c i'm cheap, and this is a good price. Plus I got a cool little Met button. So maybe next time I go they'll be using the same color and I'll get in for free... heee... i'm so cheap.

In Grey's Anatomy news: I love George. That is all.

In Music news: I've been using Pandora a lot lately. It's a Godsend. Seriously. I love it. I found this guy that kinda reminds me of Damien Rice and Jack Johnson (probably b/c I found him through my Damien Rice/Jack Johnson station) named Brett Dennen. I went to the Virgin Megastore in Union Square when I went to the pillow fight, but they didn't have any more of his CD, so I couldn't buy it. Maybe Manifest will have it when I go home for Spring Break. You know how I love to buy things when I go home. Especially from Manifest... mmmmm music. Haha.

So yes, check out Brett Dennen. Other songs to check: "Sad Songs" by Matt Nathanson, "Fortune Valentines" by Pete Krebs, "Hundred Songs" by Nicolai Dunger, "Mahgeetah" by My Morning Jacket (to name a few).

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Why I love NYC:

There are many reasons why I love NYC. Every so often I forget exactly why I love it, and I think that I could live without it. But then something so small and silly, something so amazingly New York reminds me why proximity was so important when choosing a school. Now, a lot of these little things can be seen in other cities, but they're never done with quite the same NYC charm.

During the week before Saturday, February 18th, I caught wind of something I initially thought was a joke. There was going to be a pillow fight on Saturday at 2 p.m. in Union Square? Surely you jest. No. I found it on www.nygames.net. This was no joke. I decided then and there, that I was going.

On Saturday, I rode the train into the city, and made my way to Union Square. I wasted time in the many wonderful stores (like the 5 story Barnes & Noble and the Virgin Megastore), and at 1:20 I came out into the cold to wait for the fighters to assemble (I had not brought a pillow. I wanted to observe the fight, not participate. Plus, if it did end up being a joke, I wasn't going to be the only idiot with a pillow). At first there was no one there but the few requisite protestors, but slowly, people began to arrive.

At about 1:30 there were 5 pillow fighters looking for a battle. They looked lost and confused, desperate to find more of their kind. Luckily for them, as the minutes passed, more fighters did arrive. By 1:50 there were about 50-60 would-be pillow warriors. By 2:00, the number was nearly doubled. Approximately 100 to 150 fighters, armed solely with fluffy (many of which were feather) pillows, waited for the super secret cue to get started. In fact, the cue was so secret, no one was quite sure what it was going to be.

At 2:00 someone yelled "Pillow fight!" but no one moved. They looked at each other, wondering if that had been the cue, and if they had missed it. No one moved to do anything; they just looked around. But moments later, someone standing by a light post blew a whistle. The battle had commenced.

Pillows were flying everywhere. The crowd, which has started pretty spread out, condensed into a massive, pillow-weilding mob. Though most of the fighters were in their 20s and 30s, there were a few smaller children who would run up to the crowd, take a couple swings with pillows the size of their bodies and retreat into their mother's arms, only to run back and take a couple more hits. Rinse, repeat. In the middle of the mob, a few pillows exploded feathers in to the brisk air. When I gazed up at the tornado of feathers, it looked like it was snowing, but no, it was just the feathery mess of fun.

There was even a man dressed in a bright green blazer with cut-off sleeves, and a silver bike helmet with orange flames who had invented a character for the occasion. When I accosted him to talk, he had a strong Scottish accent. When I asked him his name, he was suddenly American and asked if I wanted his real or his character name. When I said it didn't matter, he started up again with the Scottish voice. "I am General Cock-eyed McFeely," he told me. "I'm an 1870s Scottish street thug who fell asleep and woke up in 2006 and decided to party!" I asked him how many battles he had engaged in this afternoon and he told me "5 score" and something about one for every year that his father had been alive before he bore him. Haha. "Alright! I'm goin' back in!" and he ran back in with his trusty fish shaped pillow, Lt. Maj. Fish Pillow.

The fighting continued for an hour and twenty minutes. When the remaining fighters had finally become too tired to fight, they made friends and reclined in the giant pile of discarded pillows. Feathers were all over Union Square. The wind had brought some down to 13th Street, and all the way into the subway terminal beneath. And even though there were at least 3 cops hanging around the outskirts of the fight, they did nothing to shut it down. There was, after all, nothing wrong with having a pillow in public. One of the cops even told me that he thought it was pretty funny, too. Ha.

It was one of the most spectacular events I've ever witnessed in the city. The fact that so many people came out on a bitter cold Saturday afternoon (one man in pajamas) just to have a pillow fight, amazes me. I love New Yorkers.

And I love New York City.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Fourth Grade Flashbacks

Wow, this makes me happy, too. And It gives me falshbacks of fourth grade when we watched The Voyage of the Mimi. It was very interesting. That's the show that taught me (in a rather disturbing at 9 years old way) that it's easier to spread body heat to someone with hypothermia when you're naked. Also, I learned how to catch dew and the such with a tarp in case I ever get stranded on an island (the folks from Lost obviously never saw it... they had to go looking for it.. psshh... haha).

But best of all, I got to see this:














and this:
















Oh, Ben Affleck. Haha. How I enjoyed your stowing away on your grandfather's boat with that deaf woman. There was a deaf woman, wasn't there? I don't remember... it has been a long time.

But, oh, I loved The Voyage of the Mimi. It was definitely the most interesting 13 (or so) days of science class.

Remembering random things like this make me happy. Hehe.

Also, last night I was listening to Creed's "Human Clay," and I had flashbacks of 7th grade, when I was reading my favorite book The Secret of Dragonhome. Man, I loved that book. I'm going to read it when I go home for spring break. Haha. I love having flashbacks.... :D

Monday, February 06, 2006

Mmmmm Wedding Singer

This makes me immensely happy. :D



I'm so proud of Stephen Lynch in a weird "I knew and loved him years ago" sort of way. I'm so excited. I can't wait. Hehehe... I'm giddy.

Friday, February 03, 2006

Jack Johnson and the Plane Crash

Last night I had one of the scariest dreams I've ever had. And probably one of the most vivid. I was at some sort of carnival or something... more like a fair. It had different booths and stuff. I was there with a few people, but I can't really remember who. Maybe Mary Ann and Alison, and a few other people. I don't specifically recall. But at one point we started talking about Jack Johnson, and I was like "eh, I don't really like Jack Johnson. I mean, I like a few of his songs, but I don't really like him." Only the guy I was thinking about was Ben Harper, but whatever. So we're walking from booth to booth, and then we actually see Jack Johnson. And he has his own booth selling... I dunno... surfboards? But so everyone else with me got all excited because aparently they love him. And they wanted to take a picture with him, but I wasn't allowed in the picture because I didn't like him. And it made me kinda jealous because I did like him... my earlier statements had been about someone else, but I was just stupid and got the name wrong.

Anyway, so ol' Jack and I got to talking, and he liked me and we became friends. And we're just talking talking talking when we hear this really weird noise. We look up and there's a plane above us, and it's on fire. There's black smoke streaming out of it. We're like "oh shit, where is it gonna land?" And by this time, we're no longer at the fair; now we're on my campus behind the university center. And the plane is flying, or trying, over us. Then it make this sharp turn and we panic, thinking maybe it might land somewhere on campus. But then it makes another sharp turn and we're like "okay, at least it won't land on campus..." But then... of course... it makes another sharp turn and Jack's like "quick over there!" and we all jump into this stone stairwell that leads down to South Orange Ave. Our reasoning is that being below the land that the plane will land on will protect us at least somewhat from whatever might come our way... for instance, the explosion of fire and hot air.

So as soon as we get down there, the plane, which wasn't really all that big, crashes right behind the cafeteria. And flames and smoke shoot out in every direction. We all huddle down to the bottom of the stairwell, covering out heads, tornado-drill style as everything passes over us.

When we get up... someone has already set up a triage. There was this old lady and she was all burned down her back. It was awful. Someone was putting cool strips of cloth on her. Then Libby from "Lost" shows up, and apparently she's a doctor or something. She's telling us all that we have to take certain kinds of vitamins (which reminds me of those pills that you're supposed to take in case of nuclear radiation... potassium iodide or something). But then she said something like "except for those of us with burns. We're on a different diet." Whatever that has to do with vitamins. But so now I'm like "am I burned?"

I was wearing a tank top, so I guess it was conceivable. So I went over to Jack and I was like "Jack, is my back burned?" and he looked up at me but didn't say anything. Then Kate from Lost showed up (i had a lot of guest stars in my dream i guess). I think she kinda told me that my back was burned but it wasn't really bad. I could kind of see it when i tried to look at my shoulder. My back was definitely red. That scared the crap out of me, fears of infection running through my head. Hiding in the stairwell wasn't that useful anyway. But then i noticed something else. My hand really hurt. So I looked down at it, and the back of it was all red. And it burned. It really really hurt. And then i noticed that the skin was starting to bubble a little. It really really really hurt. It was awful. So I started screaming and crying. Right before I woke up there were like 6 or 7 bubbles on the back of my hand.

But then I did wake up. And I realized that I had been sleeping on my hand. And it was hot and had sleep lines on it from my sheets. I chuckled a little as I rolled over, but couldn't get the image of the explosion out of my head.

Right before the flames came over us I remember thinking: "I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye..."

Thursday, February 02, 2006

The Luxury of not having a community bathroom...

Oh man, I'm watching "The Office" right now. Have you ever seen that show? It's hilarious. I love it.

Anyway, yeah, I'm also just sitting at my desk kinda bored (there are commercials right now). Also, I've had to pee for over an hour, but someone has been in the bathroom since I don't even know when. I went to open the door about 8:30, but I saw that the light was on, which to sensible people means that there's someone in there, but my suitemates don't always seem to get that, and sometimes leave the light on. So usually I listen to see if there's anyone in there. Usually there isn't, so then I check the door to see if it's locked. This time though, I did hear someone in there, doing God knows what. So I walked away. Like 10 mintues later I hear them moving around making more noise. Only now they're dropping things. And now they're taking a shower. They've been taking a shower for like 45 minutes (holy crap! the shower just turned off!!!). But they're still in there. That annoys me in a selfish, "It's my bathroom too" sort of way. I dunno. Sweet Jesus! They just unlocked the door! There is a God.

Okay, so yeah. I have to take a german test that I accidentally missed on Wednesday. Here's to actually waking up on time tomorrow, eh? Haha. Then I have to work... but then I don't have to work at the station tomorrow night because I traded shifts with Jill. So maybe I'll go into the city. Meet up with Cousin. We'll see....

Hooray for NJ Transit Free week!

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Procrastination: My Middle Name

While avoiding the 20 pages I have left to read for Media Law, I was surfing the internet, or more accurately, I was checking my email 15 times and compulsively checking away messages and profiles, and I stumbled upon blogger.com and I thought to myself "hey, I haven't updated in a long time. Let's go for it" because I talk to myself as if I'm another person... (and that was an extremely long sentence). Anyway, I was thinking about how the title of my blog is rather emo-y, and I'm not really that emo-y, so I should probably change it, but I have no idea what I'd change it to because my URL is the name of the journal (only now that's innacurrate because I changed one of the words, but whatever). Then I was thinking about changing the url, but I didn't know what that would do to my journal, so I guess I'm stuck with it, unless I decided to just make a new one, but I have more thoughts on that that I don't care to type because they're long. So instead of referring to myself in the third person, I opted for just the first person. So now I'm subdued in all my rage.

And I'm sure that was all extremely useful to all of you. I promise I'll post something more interesting later, but now I feel like rambling, because that's what i'm innately good at.

I have 20 more pages left for Media Law to read. I have until Thursday to read it. And it's not just reading, but I have to find two court cases to brief for that class. Not really hard, just tedious and immensely boring. I finally finished the forty pages of history reading that I had to do for this week. And the gajillion pages for Media Crit. But it's okay... don't worry about me getting bored. I'll get a crap load of more reading to do in no time. It never ends the reading. It has become the bane of my existence. I don't know if I've ever been more eager for the end of the semester. Except maybe senior year of high school. That was hell. But that's another story for another day (side note: there are people out in the hallway arguing with each other and generally being loud and annoying).

Also, my Chinese New Year's resolution is to be less of a recluse because this is what I was accused of being recently. I don't deny that fact. I admit it it. And since the first step is admitting you have a problem...

And In Music News: I have discovered James Blunt. I like him. Especially the song "Goodbye My Lover." The song "You're Beautiful" on the other hand is catchy, but contains a line that makes me cringe for reasons yet unknown: "she could tell from my face that I was fucking high." Does this bother anyone else? It seems... trite? Otherwise, the album "Back to Bedlam" is pretty good. I'd recommend it... I guess. But burn it, don't buy it.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

I got tagged...

Four jobs you've had in your life:

  • Tutor at the Writing Center at school
  • Filing for the service department of a car dealership
  • and odd/under-the-table kind of jobs
  • then I had my internship and I work at the college radio station, but I don't get paid

Four movies you would watch over and over again:

  • Someone Like You
  • Saved!
  • American Beauty
  • Garden State

Four places you have lived:

  • Houston, TX
  • Fort Mill, SC
  • Pineville, NC
  • South Orange, NJ

Four TV shows you love to watch:

  • Lost
  • My Name is Earl
  • The Office
  • Drawn Together

Four places you have been on vacation:

  • New York
  • Florida
  • Europe (Germany, France, Switzerland, Liechtenstein, Austria)
  • my house....?

Four websites you visit daily:

Four of your favorite foods:

  • quesadillas
  • turkey sandwiches... mmm
  • mashed potatoes
  • pickles

Four places you would rather be right now:

  • NYC
  • Starbucks... i'm so tired...
  • a concert/show
  • Charlotte...? i dunno

Four bloggers you are tagging:

  • i don't really know anyone on blogger except Breanne, and she's the one who tagged me.
  • so no one. if you're reading this: TAG, YOU'RE IT!

Friday, January 13, 2006

Random Things

I guess I don't like to be away from blogging for too long, just in case someone is actually really this (which doesn't really seem to be happening much, but who knows?). Plus, it keeps me semi-sane... Which is probably also the reason that I have a bajillion journals, each for specific topics or types of entries. I like to stay organized, I guess. I have one for dreams, and I have one for writing down things that happen to me that give me any extreme of emotion (i.e., elation, anger, depression, etc.). This one, well this one is for things that I do, or see, or whatever. But I've already explained that in my subtitle thingy. I'm babbling.

Anyway, yeah. The last entry I made was all about the music that I purchased last year. There's a lot of good stuff on there. For example, I'm still reeling from the purchase of Duncan Sheik, Duncan Sheik. I'm in freaking love with it. I'm also in love with another Duncan album, Humming, but I bought that one earlier this year so it wasn't on the list. I'm gonna try to go to his show in NYC in February. It's so exciting (but also on the same night as a Bain Mattox show in the city. Tough decision...). But I think I finally decided on Duncan Sheik. I've never seen him before. Plus, I'm in love with him. Haha.

In other news, I had this really bizarre dream two nights ago. I was at this camp or something and there were a lot of people there, mostly kids and only a couple adults. I was a kid in the dream, but one of the older kids. There were also a lot of babies, and I found myself spending more time with the babies than with the kids my own age. I don't think I liked the other kids my age. But, at one point I joined a game or something of a bunch of people in a tiny room. We were all just sort of hanging around, but then suddenly there was this great commotion and everyone stood up. But then I guess everything was alright, because everyone went to sit down again. I was sitting at a table just sort of staring at it, not paying any attention to anyone, when suddenly I realized that no one was in the room except for me and this other kid. Where the hell did everyone go? We decided to go outside, and when we walked out the door of the room, everyone was standing around the door, waiting for us. Then they started pointing and laughing and calling us stupid because we hadn't realized that they left the room. I started crying and yelling at them that I wasn't stupid and that they were the assholes for making fun of us. And then I ran off (real mature...) and was kinda trying to hide from everyone. I was much more comfortable either by myself or with the babies... people who couldn't/wouldn't judge me.

It was like an awful flashback that never actually happened. But I was suddenly 10 years old again. Please fucking excuse me for being introspective and thoughtful and having the mental maturity of an 18-year-old. I was ten years old when I became tired of drama.

Can you believe I was actually yelled at by a kid my age (around 8 or so) for thinking too much?? I fucking hate dreams like that...