I came up with that title this morning while I laid awake in bed around 2 or 3 a.m., willing myself to go back to sleep. I don't know what was wrong with me, but I'm pretty sure I only slept about 2 hours the entire night. The rest of the night was spent in a sort of... drifting, floating sort of way. The whole time, my brain didn't stop thinking about something. At one point I think I had a song stuck in my head, but it was nothing that I could identify. Sort of like the soundtrack at a grocery store. You know it's there, but rarely ever do you think about what's playing. So I'm lying in there in a sort of suspended lucidity and I am hungry as shit. I knew I was hungry when I went to bed around midnight, and I was still hungry an hour later when I finally decided to stop reading and actually go to bed. My theory was that it would be okay, that I could go to bed hungry, and I would just worry about it in the morning when I would be starving.
Easier said than done, I guess. Because as I lay there, I got a really, really fierce hunger for a first world resident, as I was sort of drifting around in my half-consciousness. And I started getting the overwhelming sensation of yellow. The color of my hunger was yellow yellow yellow. And not really like a sunshine yellow. It was darker, more shadowy. Not like a marigold, but maybe more like pollen. The yellow was just there the entire time my stomach struggled to growl. Once the sensation was gone, so was the impression of the color.
It was just really, really weird. I don't think I've ever experienced anything like that before. I wonder if it was just the synapses in my brain firing randomly. Or maybe trying to get my attention to take care of the situation. Or maybe in my half-sleep, half-way insomnia state, my senses actually fused? I don't remember if my eyes were open or closed, so I don't know if I actually saw the yellow. But it was there. Is yellow a common color associated with hunger? It makes me wonder what colors my other emotions are.
Alright. I need some toast.
